This past month I have finished cleaning out Elyce's room. Her clothes were given to her sister and to her cousin and luckily I am able to fit into Elyce's clothes, so I kept most of her jammies, socks, some blouses, and even a few dresses. The remaining items that really didn't have a lot of meaning went to St. Martha's 2nd Hand Treasures. I know that I was just on a task mode trying to get everything done, because I didn't realize how ideal it was to donate her items to St. Martha's until I actually did it. Elyce used to volunteer at St. Martha's 2nd Hand Treasures, so it made sense to donate the remaining items there. As I was in my robotic mode, I pulled up to the front of the store instead of pulling to the back of the store where they accept all donations. This donation was different....it was special and it was sad, so I didn't want to just hand over my box and have the person grab and toss it with all the other items. So I walked into the store and spoke to one of the little old ladies there and told her my situation. She kindly told me to sit still and shortly after the manager came to help me. The minute I seen her, I lost it. All the emotions I had been keeping at bay, just came out. The manager was very sweet and just stood there and told me it was ok and that she was sorry for my loss. She asked me if I wanted her to donate the clothes to a family or to donate them to the store. I told her it didn't matter, but I just didn't want her items tossed as if they were worthless. It took me 10 minutes to compose myself before I was able to drive home.
The other items I had left to go through, were all of her books. She loved books and had over 50 books that were in very good shape, so I thought I donate them to the library. Elyce loved going to the Temecula library any chance she got, so it was the perfect choice. I drove up and spoke to the lady at the front desk and she was very helpful and considerate. I had no idea that you can request a name plate to be placed inside the books that are donated. Not all books get cycled out to the library floor, but they were able to cycle out at least 8 books. The library manager was so nice about my situation and took me into her office to discuss how it would work. She handled each one of Elyce's book with so much care, that it made me feel so good about it. The thought that Elyce's books will be shared with all the many library visitors makes me smile. Who knew they also had a special section of books for "special needs" kids. <3
So going through her items was easier than I thought it would be. Everything made sense and it felt right.
Let's go back to July 17, 2013. This day I was still in Puerto Vallarta so I can spend Elyce's angelversary there by the ocean. The funny thing is that I received an email stating that Rose had Elyce as a beneficiary to her will. I had no idea. Rose passed away a year and 2 days before Elyce and nobody ever mentioned a word to me. Unfortunately, money does crazy things to people and I think it did this to her bio dad. The sad thing was that instead of bio dad offering to help with Elyce's funeral, he never offered knowing there was money left to Elyce that should have gone to her funeral. The one thing I have never expected was help for my daughter's medical issues or when she passed away, but the fact that bio dad decides he should be the one to keep the money blows my mind. So now I ask myself, should I even try to fight him on this or let it go.
Flash back to August 2012, my meeting with the medium. I went back to re-read my notes and it said that Elyce had put up this wall for her dad, but she was showing she had 2 dads and it wasn't the dad with the initial "S". The medium also mentioned some other things that I will not mentioned, but it made me realize that Elyce knew what her bio dad had done and probably flashed through her life seeing how he wasn't around very much towards the last years of her life. I ask myself, what would be the reason for me to find out about this money a few days before Elyce's angelversary? Of all days, why then? So I think Elyce was sending me a message and that she would want me to fight more on the principle then the money. So I ask myself, do I have the energy to do it? I don't know, but when I walked in the library to donate her books, there was this huge sign in front of the ladies desk that stated they now have a legal section in the library. I guess this isn't the norm for libraries to have and the other thing was that the manager introduced me to the legal assistant too. So maybe that was another sign. :-)
You Just Got to believe.....solo tienes que creer!
