I knew this time was coming, but I was trying to hold on to faith, but my intuition and my dreams were telling me otherwise. I so hoped the medium was right and that Alba was going to get through this. I guess this is one area where she was wrong. My first dream this week was of you both holding hands and flying so peacefully with smiles on your faces. The last dream I had was 2 days ago and in that dream Alba was here visiting us, but this time she wasn't smiling. We were shopping together and there was a boy who was her brother, but older than what he is. He told me she was done fighting and was ready to go. Then in that same dream we were driving by Chaparral H.S. and a person comes out with a smile and sees her and says, "oh your better now!". She looks at me with a sad look and drives away from him. The man knew with her actions that she wasn't better, but here to say goodbye. Then the final sign was the candle I lit for each one of you. Her candle was always weaker than your candle and 2 days ago the candle went out on its own. I told Shane that I wanted to hold on to "Hope and Faith", but that I knew she wasn't going to get passed this.
It's so surreal how things were played out in yours and Alba's life. Alba was our 7th exchange student, but day one we knew how special she was. She clicked right away and fit in to our family as if she belonged here. Shane and I knew she was special and the love she had for you and you for her was a beautiful -- unconditional love you do not see often. Alba never had a sister and you were the sister she always wanted. Seeing your beautiful spirits together made me smile so much, because I never knew someone can love you as much as I loved you, but Alba did. Alba didn't care if you passed gas and stunk up the room. Alba didn't care that you had Downs syndrome. She knew you were special, as we knew she was too. These two beautiful Angels that we loved so much and will continue to love.
The loss that her parents feel right now I can fully understand. Alba and her family have such a beautiful love for one another and it was so nice to get to experience that when they were here with us. Our lives crossed paths, because we were meant to be there for one another. The fact that Alba was diagnosed with Leukemia in March and everyone thinking she may pass away and then Elyce passing away in July out of the blue just didn't make sense then. But maybe Elyce showed Alba to fight and to be strong, because everything she had to endure with Leukemia was going to be tough. Then Elyce going before Alba....maybe it was so Elyce can greet her when Alba crossed to the other side.
But what's the message here? I mean these two beautiful spirits that had so much love for everyone and so much life in them and just like that, they are gone. Why is that? This is the part I can't get my arms around, because I want it to make sense in my head. It's just so unfair for two families to hurt so much and go through all the struggles and fight to have it come to this. I know we probably will never know that answer, but please give us strength and please let us learn to live the life they both lived. We are blessed to have been able to have them both in our lives and we know how lucky we were, because not too many people get to experience what we have been able to experience with Elyce and Alba.
May both of you be in peace and continue to be here next to our sides in spirit. May we learn to love as you both loved. We send prayers to Alba's family and hope we will be with them soon next year to support each other during the worse nightmare of our lives!
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